Invisible

Took off the mask that covered my face
Not very comfortable so I wear hoods
I should break silence and talk about things that are breaking me down like I know that I should
Try to make sense of all of the things hung over my head that I once understood
Now when they ask how it is that I'm doing, I tell them I'm ok, but never all good
Empty and vast inside, I'm deserted, I feel like I'm giving off negative vibes
No longer a shell but more like a ghost, that's how it is when you don't feel alive
Crippled with thoughts of how you perceive me, what do you see when you open your eyes?
Feel like a phantom, I'll hand you Ouija, you'll wait until never for me to arrive
Left me here pouring out my soul, now you acting like you won't come near me
I can see you don't fully understand anything that's going on thats why you fear me
Doing my best to keep it all transparent, still ain't seeing through, no crystal, clearly
Screaming in your face if you wanna play the part, you can act like you don't notice me, but you goin hear me
Yes, it is me, your eyes do not deceive you, I manifest truth in a sense that is false
By that, I mean that you wouldn't believe me if I sat you down and I showed you my faults
To you it is foriegn, for me its domestic, they overstep borders regardless of walls
I want you to feel everything that I'm feeling so I'll keep on punching these holes till it falls

Open your eyes
Do you see me? (Nah)
Now that you're nowhere around
Do you need me? (Nah)
If they chained me to the ground
Would you free me? (Nah)
If I told you how it sound
Would you believe me? (Nah)
Do you believe me? (Nah)
You ain't believe me? (Nah)
Did I expect for you to turn your back and pick up and just leave me? (Nah)
I'm running in circles, you're not gonna listen, this is just making me miserable
Said that you got me, you say that you see me, then why am I feeling so fuckin invisible?

I don't wanna ask for too much, if you get too close I'll haunt you
But since I no longer show up on your radar, I can now do what I want to
I don't think you ever cared for my mentality, but didn't stop to think of what it might cost you
Not like your affected, I bet if I asked you would probably say, "I lost who?"
I'm tryna stay stable
It's all on the table, I showed you my hand, you decided to fold
This happens too often, reopen these scars, then you look away, it's getting old
It's when you get left in the dirt, that's when you feeling your body turn cold
Preserve the life that pumps through your veins, to keep it alive, everything has been slowed
Dead men walk in the land of the living, you'll know who they are if you just pay attention
Don't ever cast judgment, or think it won't happen cause we might end up at the same intersection
One second you'll find yourself riding the breeze, next thing ya know it is changing direction
It starts in your head, then it moves through your body, it's running its course just like an infection
One day we'll live, we won't have to worry, just know that it's coming, for now we'll survive
I know that you're tired of feeling this way, we so overlooked until we revive
But you do not have to do it alone, don't carry it with you, don't keep it inside
Continue to focus on moving it forward, you do it for you, no one else gonna try

Open your eyes
Do you see me? (Nah)
Now that you're nowhere around
Do you need me? (Nah)
If they chained me to the ground
Would you free me? (Nah)
If I told you how it sound
Would you believe me? (Nah)
Do you believe me? (Nah)
You ain't believe me? (Nah)
Did I expect for you to turn your back and pick up and just leave me? (Nah)
I'm running in circles, you're not gonna listen, this is just making me miserable
Said that you got me, you say that you see me, then why am I feeling so fuckin invisible?

Even if they don't see me, they goin feel the presence
Even if they don't need me, they goin get the message
Even if they don't free me, I won't be the peasant
Even if they don't believe me, they goin meet the urban legend
Let me show'em what they conjured over
Colder than a shoulder
Something like a loner
Trippin like a stoner
Can't believe their eyes when they try to summon me and now they see me crossing over
Who can I detest?
Who can I possess?
What can I keep? Giving up the rest
Who is gonna listen when I need to vent a little, open up and get it off my chest?