MISCONCEPTION, Pt. 1

What's your perception the way we deal with pain
A misconception we bottle the shame release the pain
It can't be tamed I tried to leave but she keep calling my
Name our lips touch the venom run thru my vein im
Only normal when I'm sinning that's what keeping me
Sane I seem informal by my yellow eyes but never call
Me insane please don't call me insane but did you know
By sixteen my twin brother was slain it started off in middle
School my brother teasing this lame and only death was
The way that he could cope with his pain he killed the bully
Only took one shot and left it stuck in his brain I can hear it
Still hear it the day that it rang my brother called by six o clock
Before he died in that lane I can't believe he killed my brother
I'm the one I should blame yeah I'm the one I should blame 
But did you know by seventeen I moved down south with my auntie
Named lane now auntie lane had a boyfriend who later on
Would try to slain me that nigga raped me my body ain't free
Somebody save me I can feel it I can still feel it the way he
Took the knife and pressed it on my throat and in a split second
He just slit it I remember yeah I remember the blood dripping 
My soul slipping my feet tripping throat gripping heart skipping 
Mind racing mind tracing angels singing bring me home to my brother
Grave digging but did you know by eighteen I moved back to the hood
Met this dude named Brandon really treated me good he treated me
Just like a queen you know the way that he should I blame myself I
Would've saved him any way that I could yeah I remember one shot
Two shots three shots  run out the door hit the floor scream for help 
And cry some more my mothers very first impression was a dead nigga
Bleeding out his brains from a weapon what's your perception
When you see me drink it's your perception it's just a damn misconception