Conflicted

I feel ashamed when talking bout the way I feel
The pain I feel
This shit's unreal
I said I had to get out that shit
And I knew I'd do it
I just had to pursue it
I'm gon be great I knew it
Everything I did, I did for you
And I meant that
My life's different I get that
It just seems like everyone's just bringing up old shit that I can't take back
You hate me nigga just say that
Still trippin bout shit from way back
I said what I said don't regret that...
Nigga
But I'm different now
I'm that nigga now
I was lost, but now I'm found
I came up when I was down
Who'd a thought I'd be that nigga that's been rockin' out these crowds
Me
Me
Cuz I'm my biggest supporter
Making music for quarters
My bitch left me when I was down
Cuz I just couldn't support her
But she fucked up
Cuz my plates gon be ten thousand an order
I sit in the back of that Rolls with that 22 defense Otto Porter
Nigga I did that
Man I did that
All these niggas they so jealous
They gon try and get they get back
So I can't lack
Nigga I can't lack
Cuz I'll take a nigga life before you see my mom dressed in that all black don't forget that
I'm at a loss for words
I was always showing love, but that shit for the birds
Cuz I was there for them, but not for me
I'm never treated equally
Swear to God this shit been getting on my fucking nerves
But I just keep going I know that shit gon keep me straight
And God the only man I fear cuz he control my fate
To all you other niggas I promise I won't hesitate
To lay you down if you try to take some shit that's on my plate
I'm fighting me it ain't no competition
Niggas ain't my opposition
I don't give a fuck bout what you niggas talk with that petty dissin'
I know if y'all could
Y'all would die to be in my position
I know it
I know it