Thank You

So this is the end
The  finale, the final battle the epilogue friends
Hopefully,  if you've made it to the start of this track
You can see why I don't like looking back

I have a bad habit of
Putting  the contents of my heart and mind on display
It's  a painful way to live, but there's no other way
What can I say, use to have a crush on this girl named Linnae
But  that was back when waking up was a struggle

Everyday had to hustle
My brothers and momma had no food we could eat
When we couldn't catch the bus, we had to walk on the streets
Driving  from shelter to shelter at night
Trying to finish the last of my college level homework before they shut off the lights
Meanwhile, penning poetic rhymes while I composed
Living a double life while I was hiding my woes

I thank God, for Brian and his dad and his mom
I thank God for the dance with Amanda at Prom
I thank God for the people who was helping us out
I thank God for the pain I feel now, because without it
No doubt I wouldn't be the person that I am today
But my dark thoughts still come in waves

Everyday I pass Spring Hills I miss Ms. Fraser some more
She helped me out in a time when I wasn't sure
If this life was worth living or if love was just war
Because my heart had already been torn so

Rest in peace, Darlene
Rest in peace, Ryan R
Rest in peace, Chester B
In the city of stars, we going far

Shout out to the Phantom Wizard
That's my brother Angel the super producer wizard
Shout out my little brother Nikko
Swears that he's the G.O.A.T. but I think that he using cheats codes
But we know, no need to try to flex on the ego
Shout out to my sis
Crystal keep it lit

Shout out to my mom
Y'all know she the bomb
Shout out to my dad, even though we had our separate ways
I'll never take for granted bullshit and pain
You've had to manage in your life because you know when it rains
It fucking pours, if you get the chance to listen to this
I'm proud of you homie I love you despite
All of the shit I've said to you, so please don't ever forget
Shouts to Christiana and Christian my nephew and sis

Shouts to Calvin and Jay
Shouts to DJ for real, those my boys
We go to war for each other no frills
Y'all don't know this but I met DJ on the CoD lawn
Outside of the fitness center yeah, we was forming a bond

I was practicing my moves all by myself with no qualms
And he had disappeared from the scene for 2 years, its so weird
But I really felt, right then at that moment I knew
We would eventually go on as a crew, Rocketchute

Our spirits were like rockets shooting for the stars and the moon
We've had our fair share of arguments too
But at the end of the day we stay committed
If not as dancers then friends, so once again yes this track is the end

It's the end of me focusing only on all of the heartache and pain
Of the damages, the losses, the regret and the hate
The time wasted, the dope rhymes I threw in the trash
The loneliness, the self doubt, the stabs in the back
The family feuds, beefs I had with peeps in the past
The rejection or the one sided love I would give
Or all the opportunities missed, the girls I wanted to kiss
Cause see now I wanna live

I want to be able to express the way that I feel
I want to give myself a new chance to heal
I want to smile and really just mean it this time
I want to be able to cry, I want to believe I can fly
I want to look up to the sky without a doubt in my mind
And know that I gave it my all even despite
All the tragedies that were out of my control
The ones I felt were hurting my soul

I wanna know
What it feels like to find somebody I love with all of my heart
Reciprocate it back to me for once
I want to be happy and I know its a journey for sure
But this is the start of ending this internal war