Mindset
If I drop an album and no hears does it still make a sound
Is it like a tree in the forest when it falls and no one's around
If I play a show and no one shows does it count if there's no crowd
Why go all out when you know you're dope but the world drowns you out
I'm losing it now, may never be found
Stranger things got me upside down
Turn the volume up to eleven and the voices are still way too loud
My emotions got me inside out
No amount of meds make me better now
Menacing mindset mixed with mood swings might lead me down a dark street
Mistaken identity is a real thing because seeing me doesn't mean you've seen the real me
You've seen the piece of me I don't mind showing to society
Quietly questioning why this hole I'm sinking into is widening
It's frightening how fears grip always keeps on tightening
Anxiety is never subsiding, like the high tide it keeps rising
Either gonna get sucked in or tipping and capsizing
Minding my own business has led me to a place where I'm slowly declining
Down a deep, dark hallway while I'm always being reminded
That I'm searching for peace but I'll prolly never find it
Coincidentally coinciding with the timing when it's all unwinding
Trying to get a grip but there is none so I just keep on sliding
Never able to move forward like a VCR that's just rewinding
There's a table prepared for me in the presence of my enemies
But what if my biggest enemy is the demon in the inner me
Fighting with me is taking all of my leftover energy
Literally considering laying down until someone reads the liturgy
Urgently searching for the will to move forward and keep going
Knowing green pastures lie ahead but I lay awake still hoping
They end up showing up to help sooner rather than later
For now my only glimpse of relief is when the pen hits this sheet of paper
As the page gets populated I get less and less agitated
I'd appreciate it if you gave me some time because it's getting complicated
All my focus is concentrated on regaining my health that's been confiscated
Frustrated my mind is dominated by negativity and I hate it
It should be stated that I'm digging myself out like I've been excavated
Slowly being elevated like I'm riding up on an escalator
To the top floor, so open up the front door
If you waited for me and you want more
Well I'm back now for the encore
It's Jordy