Breaking

How could I be worth this little to you
After everything we've been through
All the memories, all the countries
The connection to our families
It's gone

Couldn't say happy birthday on the 1st
Because in 2 weeks you had to quench the thirst
Days to consider a relationship's worth
Best friend brings worst pain that truly hurts
Thinking back to how cute you looked in my shirts
Then the haymaker hits as I feel cursed
No presence of mind for sex to reserve
Instead touch another plants her feet in the turf
Regret and shame you feel is well deserved
Sacrificed a friendship that could've been preserved
Questioning my character and my internal worth
I can barley breathe underneath 10 feet of dirt

Did I dig my own grave?
She Says this is the only way
Otherwise things would've never changed
Well what about the depression from which you were saved

How could I be worth this little to you
After everything we've been through
All the memories, all the countries
The connection to our families
It's gone
How could I be worth this little to you

Understand that between us there were problems
That you didn't feel that there was solving
Fact remains you did it before talking
Look for self assurance but none in your actions

Before I knew the the truth
The last time I talked to you
It was all I love you, I miss you
I regret the break
Thirst you burn from the sun i bleed from the stake

Blindside
Do it on your time
Blame traveling grind
Sex with strangers doesn't cure the mind?
Empathy you lack the third eyes blind
Slope you travel's gotta steep decline
Hope you don't let this event rewind
Just tell myself all wounds heal in time

How could I be worth this little to you
After everything we've been through
All the memories, all the countries
The connection to our families
It's gone
How could I be worth this little to you

Can't say that past problems were all your fault
Both contained demons locked in a vault
Truth be told I thought they would be resolved
Until I realized your love just dissolved

I want to apologize for times I yelled
Apologize for anger burn it in hell

For being petty when sorry had been said
Holding grudges should have never been kept

Apologize for things that I said
For saying things that I never meant

Apologize for manners I never had
For only seeing good from bad

Black from white

Still this apology doesn't make things right
I won't ever be able to forgive that night

I guess that it wasn't fate
But where there's anger there's not always hate
I just hope in your future you communicate

This is true heart break
This is true heart ache
This is my ruined mind state