How It Goes

Memories are commodities
I think I lost that part of me
And nowadays they're feeling cheap
Maybe cause they hurt so deep
I've been looking through the photos
Looking for a time that I can remember
I wasn't feeling better than now
I've been looking back I don't know
If there is a time as cold as December
Right now I'm stuck in the center of it
I don't know if you will ever understand
It'll never be okay
I won't change this is who I am
I'm in pain you'll just have to stand it
I've been so let down
So I know how it goes now
Up on the stage I don't got no plan
But I try to make it to this place I'll try
And I'm still in doubt
So I know how it goes now
My week is fueled by alcohol
Can't think of something else
And it only makes things worse
But sometimes I feel like it'll help
I know some of these things never work
I've been stuck in a circle
In a circle of hurt
I don't know if you will ever understand
It'll never be okay
I won't change this is who I am
I'm in pain you'll just have to stand it
I've been so let down
So I know how it goes now
Up on the stage I don't got no plan
But I try to make it to this place I'll try
And I'm still in doubt
So I know how it goes now
I can't take no more
Dug myself in these holes that I can't control
I know I can't take no more
Gotta be the best I can
Gotta be a man
I won't change this is who I am
I'm in pain you'll just have to stand it
I've been so let down
So I know how it goes now
Up on the stage I don't got no plan
But I try to make it to this place I'll try
And I'm still in doubt
So I know how it goes now