Ennui

It's dark
The sun is rising
And my blinds are drawn
I can hear that
My roommates are gone
My phone screen
Will light up the dawn
And I wonder

How long can I lay here
And not feel like total shit
I should make myself some breakfast
But why do that when I could just order it

Should I just jerk off
And stay in my room or
Leave the house
And see what's out there
I don't care

I'm up
The sun is blinding
And my mind is gone
My head is pounding
I stayed out too long
The ennui's real
And coming on too strong
And I wonder

I finished all the video games I own
But I don't mind going again
My brain's already turned off
And I can't see myself getting over it

I could just jerk off I suppose
Or go outside and see what the day holds
This feels old

How long can I lay here
And not feel like total shit
I should've made plans
But I hate the demands
So I'll just be alone and say fuck it

Monotony's in harmony
With misery alright
And I hate the taste of it