DEMON

I got a demon inside of me
I need somebody to come get it out of me
Got so much hatred and anger it's cloudin' me
Sick of these people consistently doubtin' me why?
They wanna see the worst out of me
All that they want is just to be on top of me
Wanna get help but my ego is stoppin' me
Thought I was strong but demons overpower me damn
I got a demon inside of me
I need somebody to come get it out of me
Got so much hatred and anger it's cloudin' me
Sick of these people consistently doubtin' me why?
They wanna see the worst out of me
All that they want is just to be on top of me
Wanna get help but my ego is stoppin' me
Thought I was strong but demons overpower me damn
Yeah, you ever feel worthless?
Like all you do is experience pain and your life has no real purpose?
Yeah
That shit hurts don't it?
Man I swear I fucking hate these moments
Just give it some time and it'll pass won't it?
This is my life so can someone explain to me
Why I don't feel like I own it?
Why!
Yeah
Laying in bed
Demons are inside of my head
Look at the walls I just see red
Probably gonna go end up dead
Yeah
Demons surrounding me there always creepin'
I'm constantly tired but not even sleepin'
I wanna keep living but can't find a reason
I look up to God and ask "When am I leavin'"?
I'll stand ten toes I will not fold
I'm built for gold I walk alone
On this here road and it's so cold
I'm on my own and can't go home nooooo
I got a demon inside of me
I need somebody to come get it out of me
Got so much hatred and anger it's cloudin' me
Sick of these people consistently doubtin' me why?
They wanna see the worst out of me
All that they want is just to be on top of me
Wanna get help but my ego is stoppin' me
Thought I was strong but demons overpower me damn
I got a demon inside of me
I need somebody to come get it out of me
Got so much hatred and anger it's cloudin' me
Sick of these people consistently doubtin' me why?
They wanna see the worst out of me
All that they want is just to be on top of me
Wanna get help but my ego is stoppin' me
Thought I was strong but demons overpower me damn
Ain't no telling where life will take you
Ain't no telling what life will make you
Ain't no telling what'll happen to you or anytime that it'll try to break you
And yeah I know it's hard to stay strong
Days get lonely and nights become long
No one to talk to so I vent in a song
Hate me now but you'll love me when I'm gone!
Nobody sees the behind the scenes!
Nobody thinks what it's like to be me!
Everyday they're always laughing at me
And they're always praying that I never succeed
Not a hero so I guess I'm the villain
Tell all this pain but no one will listen
Sick of having all these negative feelings
And questioning life like why am I livin'?
Why am I livin'?
Just to suffer?
Go and get a girl just to fuck her?
Like everyone else and not really love her?
'Cause those are actions of a fake motherfucker!
But I'm not like that and I never will be
And if you're real then I know you feel me
I'm scarred inside so you cannot heal me
Just had to show you the true and real me
How did I get here? When did this start?
Day after day I'm falling apart
Looking for light as I go through the dark
Mind is present but I don't have a heart
Stuck in my rut and I cannot get past it
Life is slowly burning down into ashes
Want happiness but I can't seem to grasp it
It is not physical I cannot go grab it
Everyday feels like I'm fighting a war
Inside of my head that I try to ignore
I try to be good but yeah what for?
I don't think I could do this anymore
Living life miserable this is my misery
This shit is pitiful look what it's did to me
Taking your ridicule it has been killin' me
This is not fixable, it might just finish me!
I got a demon inside of me
I need somebody to come get it out of me
Got so much hatred and anger it's cloudin' me
Sick of these people consistently doubtin' me why?
They wanna see the worst out of me
All that they want is just to be on top of me
Wanna get help but my ego is stoppin' me
Thought I was strong but demons overpower me damn
I got a demon inside of me
I need somebody to come get it out of me
Got so much hatred and anger it's cloudin' me
Sick of these people consistently doubtin' me why?
They wanna see the worst out of me
All that they want is just to be on top of me
Wanna get help but my ego is stoppin' me
Thought I was strong but demons overpower me damn