Livin n Dyin

Knowing things never work out
The way that I want nah
Cus every time that I wish for a chance
Life just fucks up my plans
And I ain't got much to lose
But never mind that shit
I just pick up a pen n I started writing that shit out
Praying things get better cus I hate all these cards
Tryna heal and rebuild just what is left of my heart
Never thought I'd make it here
Wasted all my younger years
Fighting all the demons there
Now I'm swimming in my aging tears
Learning to float
Cus if there's one thing I know
I know my life has got a purpose right
Barely getting threw these nights
Trying hard to find my light
Cus I lost it as the time went by
Thinking there's more to life
Than just livin' n dyin'
Thought you changed you still ain't shit
I guess that's your role huh
Cus every time that I watched all those films
Bout how true love is real
I thought maybe I lacked luck
But never mind that shit now
Since you been missing I got more time to myself
Used to think I needed you to help me with growth
But the only thing I needed was my mind and my soul
Never thought I'd make it here
Wasted all my younger years
Fighting all the demons there
Now I'm swimming in my aging tears
Learning to float
Cus if there's one thing I know
I know my life has got a purpose right
Barely getting threw these nights
Trying hard to find my light
Cus I lost it as the time went by
Thinking there's more to life
Than just livin' n dyin'
Never thought I'd make it here
Wasted all my younger years
Fighting all the demons there
Now I'm swimming in my aging tears
Learning to float
Cus if there's one thing I know
I know my life has got a purpose right
Barely getting threw these nights
Trying hard to find my light
Cus I lost it as the time went by
Thinking there's more to life
Than just livin' n dyin'