Stone Hard

I’ve made myself stone hard
‘Cause when I was soft you cut me open
I’ve closed the doors, I’m safe inside
But now these walls cannot be broken

I learned not to dream
I learned not to scream
Watched my own heart bleed
But I would not show my need

How many times I wanted you but I didn’t say
I learned from you to turn my back and walk away
But every tear I didn’t cry turned to ice inside
I tried to kill you but each time I stabbed you
I died

I’ve made myself stone hard
‘Cause when I was soft you cut me open
I’ve closed the doors, I’m safe inside
But now these walls cannot be broken

I learned not to care
I learned not to despair
I believed my own lie
So scared to fall I did not fly

How many times