Self Sabotage

[Verse 1]
I wish my head had a trap door
For when I need escaping
Can't live with myself anymore
Feels like I'm suffocating
Tight spaces, breathing in exhaust
Spiraling in negative thoughts
Hostage duct taped in the garage
A master of self sabotage

[Chorus]
I don't I don't know how to let somebody know
I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat

[Verse 2]
And I was talking to a friend
About my situation
He's been exactly where I've been
Familiar isolation
A basket case for days on end
A prison of comparisons
Hostage duck taped in the garage
A master of self sabotage

[Chorus]
I don't, I don't know how to let somebody know
I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat

[Bridge]
Gaslit by my mirror makes me wish that I was someone else
I know I can't love her until I decide to love myself
Gaslit by my mirror makes me wish that I was someone else
I know I can't love her until I decide to love myself

[Chorus]
I don't I don't know how to let somebody know
I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat

[Verse 3]
And so the plot thickens again
I'm both villain and victim
Drunk on lonely entitlement
Wanting someone to listen
I'm screaming from the inside-out
Hover above then come back down
I'm not some narcissistic god

[Outro]
Abandon this self sabotage
Abandon this self sabotage
Abandon this self sabotage
Abandon this self sabotage
Abandon this self sabotage