Pardon My Flow

Real sad boy shit
Real hard day type of shit
Just trying to get - just some of this shit out of me, so I apologize if my flow isn't to your liking, grandpa

Aight look, look, look I don't wanna -
I'm done with this, just look, just

I don't wanna rap about my ex anymore cause that shit's long been over, you know
You know we all left our old world - better world - like 5 months past October, yeah
The Rona took over, but I left my old world 2 months prior
Had a lot of hard goodbyes in 2019, yeah I'm a big crier
That shit I'll say on the record
Yeah
I said I'll see you in April
But y'all already know that Rona extended the label
4 slowly turned to 8
More school became a debate
I couldn't lock into housing
A new fate awaited me, wait
Wait

Yeah I decided to leave town again
Finna go chase adventure
Can't afford school like this
When zoom is fucking up our lectures
So I can't stay in the OC, there ain't no work for me there
And I already lowkey committed to road tripping right out of there
It's a flippin' hard year, it wasn't an easy decision
I guess it just wasn't our year, music became my mission

Fuck man, I'm -
I am cracking, it's happening, my shell isn't the strongest
I'm starting to break down, my time on Earth ain't the longest
I'm honest, I'm vulnerable
I just got tears up in my ducts
Can't decide if I wanna transfer, am I a Panther or am I a Duck?
My car is breaking down, it's making Doordashin' more stressful
Haven't checked up on financials, can't get a handle on myself

I am lonely, I am tired, I am anxious, I am stressed out
Check it D, all of the above, get me checked out
Oh doctor can you see me? I need some fucking help
This ain't a cry for help, I'm just telling you how it is

I'm just trying to tell y'all homies how it is

I mean, look
Small moments, not everyday
Don't worry mom, I'm okay. I'm okay