Autumn

I find it hard to breathe in the same air these days
I'm struggling to find sleep
Now knowing that the same fear still lurks within me
When the lights go out
And I cant seem to shake this pain in my chest
Knowing that one day all that will remain of us
Are memories through soft spoken tongues
Returning to ash or restarting a cycle
Bloom or fall
Bloom or fall
For as long as I've remembered
I've always been the lucky one
Bleeding flowers from my gums
Now there's a thorn in my tongue
The only thing I've ever known was torn from my reach
Now the roses from my skull are wilting
I'm struggling to breathe
I only wanted to break the blue
But I'm struggling
I'm struggling to pull through
Help me understand why I feel this way
I wanted to clear my conscience
Be free from pain
Tear my roots apart
Free me from myself
Tear my roots apart
Tear my thorns out too
Don't let me rot with my thoughts
And I pick each petal at a time
What I'd give to rest with you once again
Don't leave me here
Out in the cold
Don't let me wilt
Don't let me wilt
Just a flower left
Out in the cold
(Out in the cold)
I deserve more than this
And so did you my dear
But rot together or rot apart
We'll both decay
One petal at a time
One petal at a time