First Time

I put on my makeup, sprayed my perfume
Sat on the front porch, waitin' on you
Said we would catch up cause it had been awhile
I hate to admit it, but my hands are shakin'
Barely breathin', heart is racin'
Looks like feelings don't always change their minds

But you never called, never showed up
Guess some things never change
And just like livin' in a flashback
You let me down again

That's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sitting here looking at the driveway
Is just tearing my heart back in half
Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed
And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye
The first time

I should know better, I hate that I still cry
Looking like a fool here watching for headlights
And kicking myself for believing in you again
I bet you're out drinking, with a new blonde
And telling her whatever's playing is her song
And helpin' her up into your Chevy instead

Even when you don't have me
You can still be the one to hurt me
It must feel good to know
That I'm still holdin' on to letting go

That's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sitting here looking at the driveway
Is just tearing my heart back in half
Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed
And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye
The first time

Yeah, that's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sitting here looking at this driveway
Is just tearing my heart back in half
Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed
And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye

So now I'm letting you go just like I should've tried
The first time
Oh, the first time, oh yeah
Yeah, that's why the past should be the past, oh
The first time, yeah