MERCURY POISONING

You and I are not so different

Thanking god that I've come this far
Smiling in the dark
Who am I to beg them for more?
Leave me at the door and
Split my mind and my heart apart
End my story arc
Left me rotten right to the core
Bleeding on the floor
I promise that I try
I'm trying to avoid the warning signs
Terrified of the thought of ruining
Another person's life
Selfish thoughts were only meant to hinder mine

I was doomed right from the start
Everyone has gone too far
Broken houses, rotting walls are
Tempting me to free it all
Honestly I'm at a loss
Memories gone inside the fog
Watching others makes me sick but
You and I are not so different

I won't pretend I cannot love again
It's all I've been
I've yet to win
You can't really blame me
When I just want to feel again
My only dopamine release depends on something that isn't there
And nobody cares
Left alone inside the fog again
This isn't fair
Are you there to watch as I tear?
Unlimited proximity is granted to the one that
Left me here
I'm nowhere near the way to go back home

Once again I'm on my own
Much too early, fully grown
Ripping out my deadened hair
Retaliate, I wouldn't dare

I was doomed right from the start
Everyone has gone too far
Broken houses, rotting walls are
Tempting me to free it all
Honestly I'm at a loss
Memories gone inside the fog
Watching others makes me sick but
You and I are not so different

You and I are not so different

You and I are not so different

You and I are not so different