Different

Stop
In my life, I've never felt normal
Always felt like something was... I don't know. Off
Like I didn't belong, like I was always wrong
I guess you can say that I've always been a little bit
Different, that's just me, my emotions are
Ignorant, I can't see how fix it and I
Broke down, just the other day, tryna make sense
Big frown, never found a way, now it's past tense
Imagine, a life without a purpose
Lack of motivation takes away another happy day
Trapped, inside of my mind
And I'm looking for another way to stay awake and feel alive
Maybe I can try to make some music
I can change the course in life to finally move up and grow
But no one told me that it's near impossible
To do the very thing that is defining me, who could know
Well how 'bout I just find a group of friends
That I connect with and we hopefully communicate and conversate
And I tell myself, that could work
But I cannot see the perk, maybe I am too late
I'm prayin' that I make it through
This life right here right now that I am bound to lose
I hope someday that I can finally once prove
My worth but sadly this is not the time to choose
I hate myself for thinkin' that this is the end
When I know that this is a problem with me that won't mend
I don't know where to start, don't know where to go, don't know what to do
But I hope to my god that I find out before I descend
Descending head first, quickly, straight into insanity
Into a new reality repelling no calamity
Embracing a mentality and chasing a new fantasy
This is what I fear
I fear to lose it all too
The people who I know are true, even just a few
I couldn't stand another loss
It happened to me so much that I couldn't even bear the thought
I feel like I am living on this planet by myself
I am so alone, a feeling I have never felt
Even when there's other people here to treat me well
My mental state is broken and I need a little help
I'm unable to be driven to an answer
Struggle every single day with growing mental banter
Wish I never did this, wish I never said that
24/7, an emotional disaster
I'm prayin' that I make it through
This life right here right now that I am bound to lose
I hope someday that I can finally once prove
My worth but sadly this is not the time to choose
I hate myself for thinkin' that this is the end
When I know that this is a problem with me that won't mend
I don't know where to start, don't know where to go, don't know what to do
But I hope to my god that I find out before I descend
I feel like I am slippin'
Deeper into darkness as I see no light
Man I don't feel right
Stripped of all my sight
Can I make this call
Can I take this fall
Can I end it all end it all end it all end it all end it all end it
No, never this is just the beginning
There is a billion people out there who are livin'
I could make a difference even though my life is slippin'
Imagine all the time, with the fam that you'd be missin'
Don't you wish you had a daughter that could call you daddy
Even in the morning when she's gettin' kinda crabby
Loving even when your face is gettin' old and saggy
Don't you think that think that everything could be a little happy
This is just a part of life, we don't need to go
There is an entire future that we'll get to know
It is full of happy me and tragedy
Reality, insanity, profanity, and even new mentality
I believe in you, you can get through this
Even if you shootin' for the stars, you will not miss
Other people hatin' they just love to be ignorant
Well, it's okay to be a little different
It's okay to be a little different
You're not alone
Different