Lucatiel of Mirrah
Got the blade on my lap
While the flame on the pack
Boutta get it off these raps
Royal Repping fuck a plaque
Loyal to the fuckin facts
Oil fade my soul to past
Days but feelings never last
Until the day you fade to black
Yeah I really been through hell
But everybody wanna tell me it gets better you'll get well
Focus on what you expel
I been walking on eggshells
For so long now I can't despell
This green is only good for smells
And helping inner God propel
But now I'm burnt out just like stump
And working constantly but no one gives a fuck
I don't want push my luck
I just want count up all thе bucks
And feel like I'm enough
But all thesе demons gone speak up
And all my friends is getting quiet now
I'm trying not to try it out
I'm rising but still fighting sounds
Inside my mind that want me underground
With no crown
Beat down won't become no mound
Holluh Bitch I'm barely breathing
Seeking assistance in reasoning
My heart feels like it's bleeding
And these thoughts always impeding
Plans to make a better life
Stand against them stealing rights
Can't leave my element this time
And I been getting decadent thinking of these crimes that I been tried for
Who I lied for
Who put me in the suicide ward
Said to find lord
Smoke weed speak my history
Spit define lore
Hits defying more
Shit I'm vying for
But no one care to open doors
I'd rather sit in back of Ford
Than waste my time tryna appease the horde
But yall won't settle till I'm in the morgue