BROKEN

I used to think life was what you made it
A game that you were playing
A pilot in the plane
I thought auto pilot was the way
But it led me straight to shame
Automatic pain
KLP's the name
There's no need for me to change
Cause
I'm broken and it's plain
Here's what i'm saying
Listen brother
I'm feeling some type of way
I'm kneeling but I can't seem to pray
And lowkey i'm afraid
That i'm different depending on the day
Pretending like an Oscar nominee
Indifferent to the different sides of me
What's missing is the ability
To remain in charge of the people
And what they see
They catch the glimpses while I eclipse em
Cover they eyes and only feed them
Feed them with lies so they'll believe them
Ideally they're feeding into perceiving
Personas displayed while I am shielding
My authentic mind slowly fiending
A moment to shine instead of being
Pushed to the side
Like an unwanted child
But if you can't plan parenthood
How can I die?
How can I die?
How can I die?
How can I die?
Yeah
The world trynna kill this child inside
They justify that kind of homicide
I promise I
Will capitally punish thoughts of suicide
Yeah
Who am I?
I'm still trynna decide
Like a young kid trynna fly
I'll tell you why
Im scared of denial
If my flow is water
This is my blood in the nile
Got these tears in my eyes
With these fears I despise
Despite it all, I need a reply
Just tell me
How can I try
I'm trynna reach for the sky
I'm blind, but I needa see why
I feel the need to suddenly hide
My sin and my pride
I'm looking for signs
And wondering why
The Lord is distant
Can He hear these thoughts from my
Broken mind
You told me
This is the point of life
To recognize that we broken inside
And suddenly I
Slowly replied
With a nod of my head
And a smirk for a smile
Accepting your words
Now i'm ready to try
I'm taking off my disguise
Tired of living in shadows
So i'm proud to be watching my silhouette die
I'm coming alive
Hazardous vibes
Forget dying, this is Lazarus times
I chose death
But was resurrected to life
I said, glory to Christ, yeah