Out The Door
(Verse One)
You’re finally gone, no trace behind
This empty room don’t treat me kind
I know that you'll be fondly missed
The memories I’m cherishing
I’ll cling until the world don’t spin
This game of life that no one wins
I wish the best and send my love
I know I wasn’t good enough
I’m not ready to come along
My trembling legs are far from strong
You took your things and ran so far
Your shoes left marks on sidewalk tar
I'm looking back and wanting change
I wish the past was rearranged
I’ll keep living through sleepless nights
And replaying what wasn’t right
(Pre Chorus)
What you give ain’t what you get
I’m living in constant regret
Wish I got help but help got me
This isn’t how it’s s’posed to be
You’re gone for good, it’s been a year
I'm sorry I was stuck in fear
My wish you well remains the same
But I wish I went a different way
(Chorus)
You’re really gone, right out the door
I’ve touched on missing you before
I wish I could just let you go
My mind is at its lowest low
I grew in age but still feel small
I put on the facade of tall
It comes down to one simple fact
I’d change it all if you came back
It’s not a healthy way to live
But there’s not one thing I won’t give
To relive all our memories
Go back to how it used to be
You were my best and closest friend
But now our journey’s at its end
The fork shaped path is now in sight
I’m walking left as you go right
(Verse Two)
I’ve lost it all paired with my mind
No memory tightens the bind
People said that I’m better off
But in the end, I just feel lost
The isolation’s bittersweet
But this isn’t a taste to eat
I drive past places we once walked
And the tainted topics we once talked
Spiking drinks in your backyard
Recalling this is getting hard
I miss the close knit bond we shared
I miss the feeling someone cared
Nothing now will feel the same
You can’t go back inside the frame
"I can’t let go", I say through tears
But it was heard by just my ears
(Pre Chorus)
What you give ain’t what you get
I’m living in constant regret
Wish I got help but help got me
This isn’t how it’s s’posed to be
You’re gone for good, it’s been a year
I'm sorry I was stuck in fear
My wish you well remains the same
But I wish I went a different way
(Chorus)
You’re really gone, right out the door
I’ve touched on missing you before
I wish I could just let you go
My mind is at its lowest low
I grew in age but still feel small
I put on the facade of tall
It comes down to one simple fact
I’d change it all if you came back
It’s not a healthy way to live
But there’s not one thing I won’t give
To relive all our memories
Go back to how it used to be
You were my best and closest friend
But now our journey’s at its end
The fork shaped path is now in sight
I’m walking left as you go right
(Bridge)
I find it difficult to cry
But now there’s water in my eyes
I don’t even know where to start
This drift apart just breaks my heart
Life did me wrong, it’s not your fault
I’ve kept these secrets in the vault
But now I’m letting them fly free
This is my form of therapy
I’m taking steps to let you go
I’m giving myself room to grow
I wish you were here by my side
But boundaries i must abide
You don’t want me around no more
All other friendships growing poor
You aren’t the only one who left
I wonder who is leaving next
(Spoken)
I thought I was alone before
But now you’re gone, with you went more
Now my mind just freely roams
Since emptiness is now my home
(Bridge)
I need to go, I’ve sulked enough
Singing this song was fucking tough
Fear runs deep within my blood
Now I’m exposed, covered in mud
I’m telling you what no one saw
I’ve never been this stripped and raw
I wave goodbye and close this page
I hope you don’t forget my name