Belong

Where is a place
Where I belong
I look to the stars
And wonder
If they feel like me
Lost in an oblivion
That no one sees
One day
I'll turn to dust
And no one will care
I pray you catch me
When I fall
If not,
I have
No one at all

They text, call, but I can't answer
Too busy trying to stay alive
I'm losing my will to fight
They think they're helpful
By Telling me to be careful
I end up drinking more
Call it self care
They'll never know what it's like
My Uncle's gone now
He's with my friends
Been Distant from my family
They haven't seen me
In years
Too long I've been in this crucible
Only time they see me
Is at fuckin funerals
I'm fine, I'm fine
Yeah I'm alright
Half a bottle deep , I'm going out tonight
I don't even care if I lose my life
Living is an odyssey of dark roads
I walk it, with no end insight
So, So help me God if I die
And Leave this world behind
With them knowing
I was living a lie
By telling them I was fine
Though I knew
I was running out of time
Oh how I miss my friends
I'll do anything to see them again
It's been years
Grief never ends
I fear
It never ends
I fear
I fear
It never ends