Off Balance

[Intro]
I was humble and quiet when I was a child
It only brought me bruises that may never scar
But one day I believed I deserved to fly
So I put my head up and I—

[Verse 1]
I'm killing my head over things that don't really matter
How to get the fame, how to be the theme?
I'm killing my head over things raised in my head, damn
I'm losing my mind for a deal I have never seen
I'm killing my head over things that don't really matter
"Where are you at?", this isn't me
Sometimes I need to stop and enjoy the platter
But the business needs consistency
I'm trynna be the woman in my life

[Chorus]
Who's in charge, who's the boss, who's the wise?
And you know that's exhausting sometimes
It's consuming, It's only a disguise
To anxiety, my depression, reflection of my beliefs of society
The oppression, confessions I always seek
Oh yes I'm always seeking for the balance on me, and
Sometimes I lose the meaning of what I started dreaming
Oh, lately I've been thinking: "Is this all that I can be?"
At times I have to leave, talk to myself, forgive me

[Verse 2]
This cycle of trauma weighs on my head, damn
I never thought I could get so depressed
These pieces of lungs can't breath like one can
The problem is that we ignore the facts
I'm fighting against a rival I can't beat
Why do I search for help just within me?
We are taught to hide when we are feeling weak
(Here I am vulnerable, it's just how it is)

[Chorus]
Who's in charge, who's the boss, who's the wise?
And you know that's exhausting sometimes
It's consuming, It's only a disguise
To anxiety, my depression, reflection of my beliefs of society
The oppression, confessions I always seek
Oh yes I'm always seeking for the balance on me, and
Sometimes I lose the meaning of what I started dreaming
Oh, lately I've been thinking: "Is this all that I can be?"
At times I have to leave, talk to myself, forgive me

[Bridge]
I was humble and quiet when I was a child
It only brought me bruises that may never scar
But one day I believed I deserved to fly
So I put my head up and I—

[Outro]
I always sought for that confidence
Of those people who light up a room
How funny was that my innocence blinded me, I was already one
I fought hard for my independence
Now I don't even have the time to be there
Guarantee my attendance, I love you, but
I gotta go