Life on Film

My life is like a movie
The song always stops when I arrive
No way you're gonna stop me
I made sure that I took my time
I met this fella backstage last night
He said he was going to make me so proud
Should I be worried or should I feel alright?
I saw his evil smile as he waved goodbye
He's buying me rings and expensive perfumes
He said that's what it takes to make me brand new
He said I'm a treasure he wants to hire me
But I ain't fake like the ones who are on TV
He said I'ma make you a star just wait and see
"You're never gonna find no other like me"
But I don't wanna live inside of a dream
I would rather die shooting a scene
Don't wanna love somebody who doesn't love me
Only wanna kiss somebody who sees what I see
Don't wanna waste the time I don't wanna explain
I wanna be with someone who knows how the game's played
One step out of my comfort zone
And it's like when I left
I took your heart out of your chest
And in my head I always try to forget
Forget, forget, forget
A different beat I'm sitting in my own tree
Looking down on a concrete jungle
And I can't grasp it how it repeats in my mind
What it was like back in time
When you were still mine
Now I can't spend my time
It's like I never knew myself at all
And now this guy buying me flowers
And standing in the hall
When I come home at night he's there
And not out with somebody else
And it really got me questioning
Why my life is like a film
Maybe I am gonna die a youngster
Or will my trauma slowly turn me into a monster
Cause as a woman I'll forever be one of the other
And I might never even have someone to call my lover
I just wanna live my life
But am I really living if I'm doing everything right?
Cause don't we all need some drama in our lives?
Cause it gets pretty boring
Sleeping calm every night
My life on film