Irony

I feel that walking has become another chore
I don't think I can go on walking anymore
Forgive me for those words, I know they're but a cliche to you
But life is tiring, my feet are feeling sore
I wish that I could have a bit of time
To heal the ache that is growing stronger all the time
But I know time stops for nobody, let alone me
And so I go inevitably

Whenever things are going rather happily
It turns out life is just playing a trick on me
It's slightly shameful to admit the truth, I end up in tears
And so returns the same old melancholy
I miss when life was just simplicity
And misery wasn't always chasing after me
It's pretty obvious now, I should have left my regret
But I held onto it so foolishly

Maybe I overreact a bit, it hasn't destroyed me yet
Has it? But everything I desire is always just too far to get
Honestly it's just me, brainlessly, so silly
Always hoping for good to be
If that's the case
Then just hear my plea
Pick me up and drop me
Into unfaltering sleep

You say to look hard for a solution
But wouldn't that depend on the person?
So I could never. No, I could never
Believe a word anyone says
I know that everyone has their hardships
It's fairly clear to me that I'm not alone
But how is it that they can just leave them
I just don't know at all

Often I'm told I need to clean up my act
Although maturity is something I lack
And so when some simple little problems arise
I overthink them over and over again
It seems that the world is just a troublesome place
So sometimes I think that I should just end the pain
You're sick, aren't you, dear? I'm sick of the tears
Why can't everything just end simply?

Everything I aspired to be is nothing that will become of me
If my expectations are too far-fetched then just what am I to do?
Give a sign, give a sign, a reason not to die
Give me a chance to prove my worth
I constantly search for
A place to cry
Why won't these tears just stop
Pouring from my eyes?

It's hard to constantly think of the same things
It's just unnecessary to think too much
You always told me stars would guide me back home
Although they only show at night
You always showed me so much kindness
I don't deserve it, I have failed you too much
I think my tiny heart is going to split
Just leave it be for now

Step back from me
Please leave me be
This so deceitful road that I stumble on
Is never going to end

It's getting difficult to manuever
And it's just worthless to try and run away
So I'll just hold my hands over my ears
And block out all this noise
How can I live not knowing what life is?
Sometimes my dreams seem to be more realistic
Obviously I can't be called happy
Then what am I after all?