Lost U Joy

I don't understand what's wrong with me
Just clapped my hands for what I didn't feel
You say that's a right burden to take
But I don't wanna be like that
I just wanna be myself

I thought about the meaning of these words
It's really something cool to sing a song
But I feel like forced to play this toy
My guitar sounds another way
And I am afraid
I lost U joy
I lost U joy

Just know my anger is somethin' I don't need
But I can't find a way to make it disappear
I swear I'm not jokin' my dear
This guitar may destroy my pain
But I am afraid
I lost U joy
I lost U joy
I lost U joy
I lost U joy

Oh when the lights are off
I can find the best chords
So I tried to pull the right strings
And turn the light
I found U joy
I found U joy
I found U joy
I found U joy