Dreams

[HOOK]
It's you love
I tell myself like every time I look above
I can’t seem to hold you tight and feel loved
I can’t seem to hold you tight and feel loved
Now I can’t go
Keep holding all these feelings I can’t let go
I can’t seem to look at you and say no
I can’t seem to look at you and say no

[VERSE 1]
Life has been shit
Had a dream that my chest decayed
Heart beats and my breath's delayed
Look my wrists are slit
Can I be saved? Or is this just it?
Happily I'll go, before I take another soul
And when I try to reach a goal
Choke and I freeze leave me feelin like I sold
Born to fail I'll be the same when I'm old
Tryna find the warmth in the cold
Quit the music still a little shaky
Got alota nightmares and I hate me
Lately
Wishing that my parents never made me
Sip a little bit of liquor i don't do much
Half of that is cap
But you don't even know where I'm at
I'm sorry that I pushed you away
Could blame me for that but still you don't know what to say
Not a single text, not a call
Not a thought, I don't even get a "hey"
Fuck...I know that's a lie
You text every time and I say that I'm fine
Knowing damn well I don't feel like enough
"Hey! What you doing?"
"Not much..."
"You feeling okay?"
"Something like that"
I just wanna say that I love you I made a mistake that I wanna retake but I'm scared that you'll never text back...

[HOOK]
It's you love
I tell myself like every time I look above
I can’t seem to hold you tight and feel loved
I can’t seem to hold you tight and feel loved

[VERSE 2]
I been tryna focus on the better days
Waiting on the karma but its never paid
Maybe I'm the bad guy
Sad, why?
I deserve to be hurt
Couldn't make the last one work
I don't got the nerve still wanna call first
When I'm feelin like this I just cause the worst
And I gotta lotta shit that I wish I said
When the thoughts creep in start to feel the dread
And all my fuckin meds
Numb the pain instead
Of what's inside my head
Depression getting harder by the minute
If I knew how to smile I would quit it
Said so many things that I'm wishin that I didn't
I don't wanna die but the nightmares feel like this when I'm in it
I don't wanna die
But the nightmares feel like this when you're in it
And I miss you
But I don't wanna admit it
Fake face on and pretend I'm a cynic
Nights on the phone yeah I try to relive it
Think of all the things that I could've done different
But its gone now...
The dreams are gone now...