Clearly

I don't know how I feel about this

I rolled this blunt so I can ease the pain then I'm smoking so I don't have to feel again
Being lonely feels it's like everything and now I'm going crazy on what's happening
If I question you it's not the choice I had I just needed a reason to be skeptical
And I know that ain't really acceptable but the exception here is that I'm cynical
And I've been a fool cuz I believed in you even when I knew that you ain't tell the truth
Trusted hard but now I'm really pitiful and I fell so hard couldn't get over you
Then my heart was trashed but it's recyclable then it was dusted off for some revival too
And became a gem for my lil other boo so I am who I am by her replacing you
In the grander scheme I'm very comfortable cuz she had met my needs not really feeling you
And again I say that she's the living truth so I'm grateful for a peace of mind or two
So tell me what's to happen for stabbing me in the back
You done realize you lost me back when you couldn't handle my actions
You say I'm overreacting don't tell me how to be acting
You can't even come through but I thought I had missed you
Then I realized your issues saw my heart being misused
Glad we ain't get to year two then I'm finding out how you
Couldn't sleep cuz you had felt defeat and I'm wishing that I could've felt her feet
Now you living bad since you had felt the heat but the wrath of God can't put a hold on me
But in other words you put a whole in me cuz you were keeping me from being a father see
When I lost my one and only commodity so I'm leaving now right in your time of need

I was throwing pitches but only catching curves
And to be with her I really had the nerve but I felt my nerves getting the best of me
So I knew in time that she's the one to be so now I'm working hard to make it last for me
And this is getting better so then I'll make her wifey
When I shift the mind to only thinking slightly
To maturity cuz I can't take her lightly she the real thing and then I think I might be
So mad in love she the one above all the ones I curved and now I hug her tightly
My blunting here got me faded just slightly is overrated
I'm numb so I'm feeling jaded escape the pain by sedation
The answer was blowing papers how shallow did I feel baby
If smoking was my escape but the route to life's only patience
I stopped with keeping up pace with pain then I worked so hard to get my freedom again
Cuz the mind is sketchy so control your thinking
If you get the urge for some impulsive acting then began to think of where you could be after
Then you'll notice how you could be moving chapters
Instead of living a life to where you're moving backwards
In the end you're glad you took your time with acting
What I said could be over stating but to you this an understatement
And to think I had wasted patience on you but I learned time was wasted
Ain't got nothing much to say and so I copped a new life I made it
Hope the Internet's up to date just to see the moves that I'm making
I'm living free the way I wanna be you could've had this life
If you only stuck with me but now I got my baby who's really stuck to me
And now I'm thinking clearly from what had clouded me