Without U

Where would you go and what would you do
If all that you gave and all that you knew faded away
The rest of your days are thinking bout memories things you've been through
Cuz I've been noticing, that life ain't fair and people don't care
So I've been focusing on fixing myself, in need of repair, look
Yeah life is cold innit
Like staring through a window at the snow
Sitting while you're home alone
But you're gone and now I start to feel it
My actions spoke more than I could say, hope you and the baby's okay, good luck
Now I'm speeding down 185, can't get my mind right
Feeling so hollow inside, can't find a way around
I'm drinking after getting high, now I feel numb again
Hits different, you not by my side, but ima ride again, like
I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, look
I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, look
The things I'm feeling right now
Like I'm losing myself
Told em' that I might stop, I don't need any help
Was fighting these demons, begging and pleading, I can't find a way out
Now I'm bleeding inside asking myself what is left like fuck
Hey how you doing, I just wanted to give you a call and, uh
I know you probably don't
Want to speak to me but I just wanted to check up on ya'll, one
I wish you well feels like a spell, I can't get it right
Toss and turn every night, wishing I could survive the hype
I left you open and broken
Ashes fall to the floor
The fire from my broken soul
Wishing that you'd walk through the door
I miss my son, he's growing fast
I might never see
Cherishing everything
Now it's late, I can't change a thing
Just know I love you for certain
You filled my life with purpose
You're gone it's urgent
But prolly best that you closed the curtains
I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, look
I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't, look