Ever is a Long Time (Ever is No Time at All)

What's the point in trying
I just fall behind
Spend minutes just to pay
For bleary eyes
Wouldn't you rather die than
Be on my mind
It hurts my head to think
About you dead
But I do it all the time

I could be a soul to keep
Or I could keep on living soullessly
I could be a soul to keep
Or I could keep on living soullessly

Drawing all the curtains
To hide from ghosts
That whisper 'bout the things
We're scared of most
Chain link fences make us feel safe
From shady parts of everything
That I've made real to me

You screamed "Holy shit"
The wind swept you off your feet
It sure as hell wasn't me
I swear to god it was just
Two nights, a cloud of smoke
Exhaled from my still choking lungs
I couldn't move
I couldn't see
That you're the breath
I shouldn't breathe

Shallow breath breathes
Air so heavy

I went down to the bottom of the river
Plant myself in a watery grave
'Cause when I'm down I can't see the surface
Just unknowns and answers I can't see
So I let go of your tiny little fingers
Just to say that I couldn't be saved
'Cause when I'm gone I won't forget a single
Bit of all those long-gone memories

Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own
Wait, don't go
I'll hold you on my own