The Rain

Existential crises coupled with a
Malleable psyche got
Me tryna find new balance in these Nikes as
I walk through sidewalks the same ones that I
Thought would lead me to greatness
Right now just seem vacant
At this lonely hour
All I got’s illusions of phony power
Only cowards live
In fear but only fools go without it
Know about it?
Tell me what you know about it
Let me see your bloody knuckles so
I really know you bout it
Sometimes I hide and my
Mind be so overcrowded
So I don’t get high cause I’m
Tryna be low about it
But my potential ain’t lettin me be
My perspective’s cripplin me
It should be settin me free
What if I never become what
I could eventually be?
What if happiness and love just
Aren’t destined for me?
What if I’m wrong, dead wrong? Yo
It’s happened before
What happens when the passion
Isn’t passion no more?

I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)

Dr squires: "I don’t want
You on medication Luke, you
Might as well have a Starbucks in your brain
You follow me? Don’t jump for a quick fix
This whole fuckin city wants a quick
Fix embrace your pain
Make it a part of you you don’t
Want to be like them i don’t
Want you to be like them"
Luke: "So have you ever taken
Any of that stuff?" Dr
Squires: "Jesus, Luke
I’m on all of it i don’t want you
To be like me either sex is a drug too
You know? More powerful than
Any synthetic pharmaceutical"

I always find the right girls
At the wrong times
And the wrong girls at the right ones
It’s like I need a fuckin
Love metronome just so
One day I can get the timin right
But maybe I’m just better off
I don’t mean better off
I mean like better off, troubled
And with pleasure lost
Muzzled by like several thoughts
That keep recurring
Like we’ll just keep hurtin
Is this even worth it?
Are these feelings pure or do
I just need purpose?
Is anything I do on purpose?
Why do I persist with searches
For love when I
Ain’t sure if it even is the cure?
I just can't control the urge, it's absurd
It’s unreasonable at best
I can hear my heart beatin in my
Chest even when it's at rest
Don’t wanna compete wit my regrets
What if I don’t believe and I accept?
Fuck, I guess this is how it’s supposed to be
That’s why I always riff with those
I let close to me
And although I’m a fraction of
What I hope to be i always judge so hard I
Can’t put down this gavel
I be on my high horse
But I ain’t even saddled
All I know is I refuse to be cattle
Refuse to let my life be a raffle
I can't be bought
I just pray that I can be taught

I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)
I don’t know, I don’t know
(This is everything that I’m afraid of)

Dr squires: "That was really fuckin cheesy
What you said just now"
Luke: "There’s enough assholes in the world
Dr squires don’t be another one"