Game of Life / Part of Me

Contemplating life, everything I'm going through
Lot up on my mind, I just wanna be the new
Star on the stage, success imma claim
With a hundred thousand people that be screaming out my name, uh
Yeah, but lately I don't feel the same
Wonder what I need to sacrifice to get the fame
Cause I ain't tryna get it just at any cost
And I ain't tryna look at the devil applaud
Life's about mistakes, and I'm tryna fucking learn
While I'm looking up inside, does the fire really burn?
Tryna figure out, which way I should be going
But it's kinda hard when I'm feeling like I'm in a maze, snowing
I just need to breathe, take a second to relieve
All the stress I got inside, I just wanna be free
Know it sounds so easy, but it ain't
Cause I'm my own enemy, not a saint
And that's facts, wonder where I'm at
Sitting in the studio, tryna get the plaques
By showing how I feel, and writing down lyrics
Although I'm in the basement, man, this music through the ceiling
Feeling, but not revealing, everything that I'm dealing
With on a daily basis, I just wanna get faded
Forget why I be jaded, I know this life is sacred
Forget why I be jaded, man, I know this life is sacred, like

If you have the opportunity
To play this game of life
You need to appreciate every moment
A lot of people don't appreciate they moment, until it's past
And then you gotta tell those Al Bundy stories: "you remember when I"?

Touching the paper I'm using the ink
Feeling so different they feeling it too
I just want get it by, by any means
Even if that mean I'm killing you too
Planning my mission and visualizing
Robbing the store because I ain't the buying, type
Nah, I want it all
And that go for summer, for winter, no fall
And, imma show it, if they wanna see it, too
Lotta people say they want it and they'll get it soon
But, are they really getting what they saying, tho?
I ain't talking, I'm just walking, I ain't playing, tho
Always said I'd make it and I ain't lying
Imma get the bread, make a...
I don't know if this fits into the song, tho...
Making so much dough it's hard to digest
Not yet, but it's coming, though
If you trust me, listen up, cause I'm coming fo'
Everything they said I couldn't have, but I'm on it, tho
Yeah, I'm the leader of the pack, like Geronimo
This ain't no trap, old school rap, this what make 'em clap
Man, I'm busy with the rap, like it's Christmas, cause I wrap
All the gifts you wanna have, they coming right now
5 motherfucking songs, this is just how
A masterpiece sounds, uh, take a listen
Going all the way, ain't no intermission
Getting straight to business, sharing all my feelings
Hope you gonna feel it, this is my revealin'

Tryna find my path in this life
I won't let my past get to my, head
And distract me from my dreams
Cause imma get 'em all, no sleep
But it's problems with the family affecting me, too
Parents hardly talk, and whenever they do
It's arguments and consequence, uh, too much
Way too complicated, all my feelings imma paint 'em, but
That ain't even the worst
Ain't talking to my dad's family 'cause they worse
Beefing with my moms, even 'fore I was born
And on top that shit, now they treating me wrong
And I don't know what to think, what to say
But I ain't tryna drown the pain, novocaine
I'm just tryna solve it, least within myself
Cause now I'm distancing myself from everybody else
Went through a lot, of troubling times
Back when I was young, around 09
Mom met a man, turned out to be crazy
But he had two daughters, and they were amazing
Became like a family, before too long
Lived together for some years, but it turned out wrong
Physical abuse, beat my mom
Mentally abused everyone in the house
And that shit leaves scares, tormented my soul
To see him treat us like that, but we still had hope
Better days were coming, and that shit was true
Kicked him out the house, but mom still felt blue
Depression took a hold, cause of past events
Along with this one, man, it sure didn't help
Plus the money was tight, almost didn't have enough
If it wasn't for my dad, situation would've been rough
Even today we dealing with the repercussions
Tryna find my balance, it's not just all or nothing
Searching for peace, that's internally
Hope I find it, so that it becomes a part of me
I said I'm searching for peace, externally
Hope I find it, so that it becomes a part of me
You know I'm searching for peace, yeah
And I'll find it so that it becomes a part of me, yeah