hunger pains

I wanted to tell you
But just not like this
How much you make me always feel like shit
Guess half the time, I might feel alright
But when you talk to me, I just lose my mind
Inside my head, guess that's where I'll live
Spent half my life worried about pointless shit
Missing everyone
Feel my only friends is my thoughts, all fucked up and stuck in my head
Moms just too busy
Memories of a dad
I hate how he's never going to know who I am
But guess it's okay, she thinks I'm cool I guess
But no one around me actually gives a shit
So
Yeah I just don't know if I'm so lost or just stupid again
Is it just in my head?
So
I guеss I don't know why I'm so lost, why'd I do this again?
Guess I'll pretend
That it's okay
Act likе I'm alright
'Cause nobody likes being around someone who's just like sorry for themself
Life doesn't seem that bad
It could be a lot worse so
I shouldn't be so sad
On the outside it seems you do this for pretend
But inside you're actually hurtin' I guess
But stop being a bitch, no one cares if you're sad
We're all sad as fuck so just make us all laugh
So
Yeah I just don't know if I'm so lost or just stupid again
Is it just in my head?
So
I guess I don't know why I'm so lost, why'd I do this again?
Guess I'll pretend