​​jisatsu girl

[Instrumental Intro]

[Chorus]
I feel like I am dead
Can't get outside my head, my head
I feel like I can't move
Just don't know what to do, to do

[Verse 1]
I hate being alive
Slit my wrist, I wanna die
Wish I wasn't such a guy
Stay inside like all the time
Life just feels like such a pain
I really hate everything
Motivation is so drained
And I really hate my face like
Ooh
Been so long since I have cleaned my room
Been so long since I have made my fucking bed
I feel so made fun of by all of my friends, and
I feel so degen, I wake myself at 1 p.m.​​
I hate this life, I think of death
But I'm too scared of nothingness
I'm not prepared to leave this world
I wish I was an average girl
Instead, I struggle to feel real
Instead, I struggle to see a life where I pay bills

[Chorus]
I feel like I am dead
Can't get outside my head, my head
I feel like I can't move
Just don't know what to do, to do

[Verse 2]
I don't know why I try
Bad decisions, I just cry
See incisions on my thighs
Next to prickly bumps of mine
Nigga, everything is strange
Why do I feel so much pain?
My hair feels so disarrayed
And I cannot feel okay, like
I don't have like any power
Feel like my life is over
Only have me to blame
Throw on a skirt and
Run outside again embarrassing myself for hours
Feel ashamed, a stupid troon
I've fucked my life too soon
I know I'm not doing too well
I'll end up a jisatsu girl
If I don’t grab onto myself
If I don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

[Outro]
I feel like I am dead
Can't get outside my head, my head
I feel like I can't move
Just don't know what to do, to do
To do, to d- to-to—