now i'm a ghost

Trying to put it in the past
It happened all so fast
But these memories come back
I'm tired of these acts
And like I ain't even mad
Played it out so bad
And it was fun
Hell, I couldn't get enough
But it's fucked the way that I tore it down
I'm so selfish, wanna leave this town
And no one cares
Can't even tell my friends
Stuck inside this shame
And I've been lacking self control
Been going out
And I know you don't care at all
But I meant it
(Fuck)
And I've always wanted more
Than I could ever hold
Well it's easier said than done
Now I'm a ghost
I fucking hate
The way that you lay it on me
Said we'll try again
But you ain't reply
Burning up that bag
Got nowhere to hide
I think I'm going blind
Been cutting losses
Got to tying nooses
I can't explain all those fucking noises
It's been way too long
But I'm lacking choices
These wrongs corrode me
I'm so far from flawless
And I've been lacking self control
Been going out
And I know you don't care at all
But I meant it
(Fuck)
And I've always wanted more
Than I could ever hold
Well it's easier said than done
Now I'm a ghost
I fucking hate the way that you make me feel
For all I know
None of that was real
Got this snow inside my eyes
All this poison in my brain
It's all that gets me by
Fuck I'm running out of lies
And we all know that she's just the mistress
Fucking with my friends
Man, just mind your business
Think that I should quit it
But I lost the pieces
I'm getting tired of burning bridges
And I've been lacking self control
Been going out
And I know you don't care at all
But I meant it
(Fuck)
And I've always wanted more
Than I could ever hold
Well it's easier said than done
Now I'm a ghost