Facial expressions

I know I want it but I try
Not to notice the way I lie
I make up all of it
All the memories that I can't hide
And I don't really count on my friends
Coz I can never express it
Your facial expressions ain't nothing to me
Nothing to me and I don't

Think I believe in love
Think I believe in trust
You always wanted the one
Our numbers ain't adding up
I always thought that we were being perfect
Perfection's perception so that it's worth it
I wouldn't leave my family if I fought with them
I wouldn't throw my shoes if I got dirt on them

I don't wanna go back there but you know
Yeah I'm afraid to tell myself that I want it back
Yeah I'm afraid to tell myself it ain't coming back
Yeah I'm afraid I know that it hurt me bad
But I still want it back

It don't make no sense
I don't know how I feel
I don't know what's real
I need everything back
But I didn't want it then
Now I want everything back
But everybody left
Problem with living the most beautiful life
I keep on looking back wishing that that was my life right now
I try my best not to try
Think about it every night
But I can't seem to get by