Stay Focused
There's so much tension in the air
No communication to spare it's like she doesn't care
All this negative emotion is gonna make my head blow into big portions
This heart is so important so please have some caution
Not gonna force this into a blossom
Every so often we'd be fine but then we blow up into a fight
I hope you're having the time of your life
Cause I know when without you by my side
I feel like I'm gonna cry o I want to die
Haven't felt whole inside open wide
Our happiness was denied or was it all a lie
Maybe it was based on the outside put my pride on the side
Grab hold of my inner most self and admit for your help
It's time to spilt ways fucking find our own days
Cause you would never quit your shit
I had my own commitments you couldn't stand it
I'm done with this shit I'm done with this fight
Go have fun in your lies go have with your life
Cause I'm done with this shit I can't stand it this time
So now I'm focused you are no longer my opponent
Time to wake up and move forward
I'm staying focused
Contemplating relapsing or suicide
Cause I don't know if I want to stay alive
I don't know who I've become I wish I could drown in some rum tonight
Hoping it makes me numb
This shit is so hard to overcome
I am sober but its like the days are getting colder
Sitting in my bed with bi-polar meds
I'm just a sad loner and a daily smoker
Wish I could quit they tell me one day at a time
I can't take the thoughts in my mind
Were too young to be chasing love
We should be chasing our dreams instead were chasing the feen
But we have everything we already need bitch I'm clean
Can I paint you a picture
I wish I was more secure
Cause I'm trapped in this mind race of fear
I'm pretty sure my time is near
So my dear let me make it clear
All these these needles and pills are definitely not the cure
Endless cycle is a fucking loop I feel like a hamster wheel got loose
Check me relapse or freedom it's hard to choose
All these pointless thoughts I'm so confused
Surrounding me are happy faces
Well me I'm not amused
Friends switch up on me like ones and twos
They may be fake but morals stay true
So now I'm focused you are no longer my opponent
Time to wake up and move forward
I'm staying focused