TissueBox

I've been up i've been down and they say
"Michaela, the chemicals are different
In your brain" i've been held down
I've been strapped down in restraints
I've been locked in hospitals with
Folks that are really insane
I didn't ever hurt nobody
Maybe sometimes myself
And I didn't ever tell nobody
How sad I felt
Cause it's just hard to explain
No one understands me
Cause they can't see my pain
I guess I don't show any emotion
It's all inside of me
I feel it i'm so disappointed in myself
And I don't wanna start crying
Cause my friend is on the couch
I'm sorry just tryna put these records out

I've just been in my room since I was kid
Cutting songs while my best
Friend cut her wrists
And she didn't ever hurt nobody
Most times just herself
And she didn't have nobody else
That she could tell so I just kept it all in
But I told my mom my secrets
And when I'm calling
She always answers quick
Cause she knows at any minute
I could be manic i don't care what the fuck
She knows at any minute I could panic
I feel like I'm gonna faint
Cause I'm a hypochondriac with damage
I've given myself some sort
Of disease or something
That shit be so hard to fuckin' manage
Just my head isn't clear at all

One day I'm good, the next I'm dyin'
But it's all in my mind
They say I'm fine when i'm not
So get your tissue box
Cause I got all these thoughts
You can listen if you want
Or just turn it off

And I can't even i'm in pain all the time
My physical pain, mental pain
How am I going to take care of myself
When I can barely take care of myself
When people are taking care of me?
I feel crazy, I'm so mad that at this point
I feel like I'm gonna let 10 years
20 years pass by and I'm gonna be miserable

Whatever you listen to
That music you listen to all day that's
The music you're telling yourself that's
The music you're telling yourself
Ok? So you listen to HAPPY SONGS
You listen to songs
That make you feel strong! And
Make you feel good
Ok! Don't listen to that sad sappy shit
Unless you're in a sad sappy mood