If You Only Knew
I tell myself I am seeing ghosts
They're just projections of the things I need the most
'Cause when you say hello or smile at me
That's not a secret code
You're tryin to signal me
It's just a trick of my mind
What am I hoping to find
I need to stop this before one of us gets hurt
But when I'm lying awake
It feels like such mistake
A wasted day 'cause I didn't say a word
Oh no
Though I know that this isn't real
I cannot help but wonder what you'd feel
And though I know that it isn't true
I cannot help but wonder what you'd do
I tell myself I should wake and see
There's not the slightest chance you'd ever fall for me
I'm holding on to this fantasy
A play that's staged within
My dreams and reveries
It's just a trick of my mind
Desire's turning me blind
Shows me a side of you that simply isn't there
And when I'm lying in bed
My head, filled with regrets
A train of thoughts on a track that leads nowhere
Nowhere
Though I know that this isn't real
I cannot help but wonder what you'd feel
And though I know that it isn't true
I cannot help but wonder what you'd do
If you only knew
If you only knew
If you only knew
If you only knew the way your laugh
Shines like a blade
But cuts me in half
If you only knew the way your smile
Haunts me