Where Is My Escape

Defeat me, Release me
'Cause lately I'm crawling out of my skin
I hate me, I love me
Just another hole to dig in
And every time I told myself
"It's time to begin"
I guess there's no other way
I have to learn some discipline

I'm putting my life
Together back again
Done wasting my nights and days
Waiting for a change
I can't live without a goal
To keep me straight
I've dug a hole through the earth
But now, where is my escape?

I am fighting
Denying myself some fucking peace of mind
These shortcuts
They take me all the way back to the start
Can I just live without these cheats
Only for a while?
I know they're not really what makes me smile

I'm putting my life
Together back again
Done wasting my nights and days
Waiting for a change
I can't live without a goal
To keep me straight
I've dug a hole through the earth
But now, where is my escape?