Monster

Have you ever felt like a monster
Like you're trapped in someone's head
Have you ever really had to wonder
Am I better off alive or like
It's not fair that you're impaired
While everyone else seems happy
Have you ever felt like a monster
Did you believe what the voices said
Yeah, I wake up wasted at the break of dawn
'Cause I feel like my life, like, it's already gone
Like it's out of my hands, but it's all in my head
God, I feel like I'm already dead, like
It's all a simulation without a purpose
And everything else feels so absurd, it's
Too much for me to deal with
I can't sleep, yeah like damn, I feel sick
And I'm too tired to fight, like
I'm too scared to try
Like, I wake up and every moment collapses
Feel empty and then I relapse, it's
Like I don't know what's real or not
Trying to be okay but I forgot
How, so I go but I already know
God, why am I all alone
Have you ever felt like a monster
Like you're trapped in someone's head
Have you ever really had to wonder
Am I better off alive or like
It's not fair that you're impaired
While everyone else seems happy
Have you ever felt like a monster
Did you believe what the voices said
Did you believe what the voices said
Sometimes, I feel like it's always a mess
Convulse, compulsion, and I only obsess
How many more lifetimes do I have to live
I'm so tired, it's too much to deal with
Will it be like Groundhog Day when I wake up
And repeat it all like it's meant to be that way
Got highs and lows, and yeah the harder they fall
I'm still insecure, I know for sure
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know anymore
What's left, what's right, I don't know anymore
I'm feeling anxious not knowing what's in store
And living the same life I didn't ask for
Well, there's no shame in admitting I'm in pain
The monster is gone, but the scars remain
And I imagine my life until now and I hope
Until I finally realize that I'm really okay
Have you ever felt like a monster
Like a monster
Have you ever felt like a monster
Have you ever felt like a monster
No, you're not a monster
Don't believe what's in your head
And no, you don't have to wonder
'Cause you're better off alive and yeah
It's not fair that you're impaired
But everyone has their own pain
No, you're not a monster
Don't believe what the voices said
Don't believe what the voices said