Attention Freestyle

Outsider so I look from the side
I'm not ok but I say that I'm fine
I'm not ok still standing to fight
Take these demons out of my mind
How I feel is a mystery
Keeps looking back to the history
You stabbed me in the back non-physically
You ruined my life
And you've done it easily
I try not think about you
It's hard when I'm not sober
You got me thinking bout when you was mine
I can't believe this lover
That you and me it's over
You not coming home with me tonight
Still looking for the formula
Still looking for the hope of us
We used to fuck until the sun is up
We used to love
Until death will pop and the sun will drop
Rip my trust
That's the reason why I started drugs
Everybody looking me like god
You're the reason why I fell in love
Broke for a minute
Falls on the floor
Spin around like a fidget
Remembering you and I started to feel it
Remembering you anxiety hits like I couldn't believe it
Fuck on your feeling
You said you love me
You eventually did it
You broke my heart I don't got any feelings
Don't say you love me
Don't say it no
You don't want my heart
You just want attention
Lesson yeah you taught me a lesson
Depression sitting alone in my mansion
Flexing when I'm nervous I'm flexing
Fuck that bitch she was a distraction
Attention she just wants some attention
Your love is illegal feels like protection
A lot of scars feel like a blessings
When I'm touching you
I feel like I'm tripping
You don't want my heart
Baby you just hate the thought of me with someone new
Yeah you just want attention
I knew from the start
You just making sure I'm never getting over you
Goosebumps on my body when I'm thinking of you
All my fucking problems always lead to you
All my happiness is hidden by you
She left me scared
Got nothing to lose
I try not think about you
It's hard when I'm not sober
You got me thinking bout when you was mine
I can't believe I say that that you and me it's over
You not coming home with me tonight