Insane Path

Beware it's not the way it's going down
I've been lost somehow
But no one ever saw me insane
When I was trying to move on with the things in my life
I had to deal with a bunch of things I depise
I don't want to heal I don't want to feel anything
I'm somewhere in between my reality and a lie
I don't to heal I don't want to feel anything
I'm crawling in the dark every time the daylight dies
Life stoles from me all the clarity I can see
Every chance I take makes me stay away from the truth
I don't want to heal I don't want to feel anything
Just as long as I keep running through this bleeding clouds
I am trying to escape from this insane path
Walking hide inside my mind to stay alive
I'm sinking deeper underground but I want to rise
I'm sinking deeper under my mind but I need to rise
Ineed to rise
There is no help
And there is nowhere else to go
There is no coming back
I'm not sober
I'm sinking all alone
I'm not sober
I'm sinking deeper every time I fall
Into this black holes filled with emptiness and sorrow
And I won't keep looking for a reason for all of this insanity
Right now because that is just a waste