5 again

I'm not 19 tonight
I still sleep with a light on
Say I'm 20 now
But it just don't feel right
And I guess I'm nervous
That I'll never know
How to feel like a kid, so bright Eyed, with no one telling me
It was dramatic I cried
Oh and I'll cry
I'm still a child in my eyes
Could you just say that I'm right
I'm not 19 tonight
And I'm not sure why
I haven't learned
Just how to survive
I'm still a child in my eyes
Could you just say that I'm right
I've got a nasty habit of picking My skin till it bleeds
And it's a sort of comfort
That you'll never need
And I've tried to tell you I've
Never felt my age
Once in my life
But you've still got that
Blank stare in your eye
I'm not 19 tonight
I still sleep with a light on
Guess I'm 20 now
But it just don't feel right
No it just don't feel right
When the worlds like this
I could be 5 again and hide