Stuck in a Hole

My tongue should fall for all the lies I've said
All of those times I could have done better
The weight on my shoulder's is bigger every day
I've been holding on for so long
I can't stand it anymore
The sun is going down like it always should
And I don't want to fade just like it does
Am I my own enemy
I'm tired of being a fucking shame
How can I stop this
´cause I stuck in a hole a dug myself
What the fuck is wrong with me
All those mistakes that I have made
I should have been sorry
I pushed away the ones who cared about me
This inner violence never ends
My misery gets along with my agony
My fate is fucking cursed
I can't stand it anymore
I need to find a way to swing back to shore
But I don't want to drown all alone
Am I my own enemy
Put the rope
Around my neck
I'm begging please
Make it end
I won't go trough this all by myself
I need you here, I need help
'cause I'm stuck in a hole a dug myself
What the fuck is wrong with me
All those mistakes that I have made
I should have been sorry
But I'm done living like someone else
Help me be me
Fuck it I'm tired of trying
I will be a defeat of society
And if you're trying to help me
I will swallow you up in my misery
In my misery