Tryna Be Grown

Yeah, uh,

Tryna be grown but the city that I'm from got me a feeling like a boy in these streets,
Aiming for the throne, but the city I put on got me up, every night I can't sleep,
Tryna be strong, but the crown gettin' heavy and it's hard for me to stay on my feet,
Tryna be grown but the city that I'm from got me a feeling like a boy in these streets,
(Yeye, yeah, look, uh)

Been growin' up,
Through the years and years I been through enough,
Shifted gears and here I'm near blowin' up,
Man I used to fear the tears appearing and such
I done lost touch for a minute,
Man we came from nothin' I wonder how we did it,
Used to blame the struggle, but now the scales tippin',
Never was afraid to hustle and that's what made a difference,
I been on the grind for a long time,
I was online takin' any kinda job I could get,
I was knockin' doors for a while gettin' slammed in my face, that was what I had to do to pay the rent,
Fast forward to the present and they still tryna shut me out, well,
I don't mind I ain't never needed y'all to make it this far without your help, but,
It's still got me fucked up cause I'm...

And she would let me understand the context that I was being raised in,
That I'm being raised in a hostile environment, that I have to tame,
I was sensitive, I'd cry easy and I would be scared to fist fight,
And my mother used to tell me, you said son, sometimes you have to be a lion,
So you can be the lamb you really are,
I talk this shit like a lion,
I'm not afraid of any of you when it comes word to word,
I will gab with the best of 'em,
Just so I can chill and be me,

Listen,
I had to train myself to be afraid of nothin',
I came in bustin' my ass, never playin' or frontin',
This ain't sudden, it's a long term same discussion,
Up in the mirror to myself it became confronting,
And as a child I never considered leadership,
A quality that I possessed,
When I needed it the most I designed these steps,
To get to where I'm trying to go,
I tried my best,
To push through anxiety that could hold me back from opportunity,
Became a yes man once I decided that I couldn't allow me to ruin me,
I had to be the somebody that I believe can be the change I really wanna see,
Whether or not I make it through the next year I'm just hoping I finally made you proud of me,
Cause it was all love, for real,

Tryna be grown but the city that I'm from got me a feeling like a boy in these streets,
Aiming for the throne, but the city I put on got me up, every night I can't sleep,
Tryna be strong, but the crown gettin' heavy and it's hard for me to stay on my feet,
Tryna be grown but the city that I'm from got me a feeling like a boy in these streets,