Let Go

I wrote it down when I was fourteen
Not to slouch, just to seem like I was shorter than the boys
And I started carving out the weak parts
Till I was a woman I became by choice
And now I'm looking at you picking out a record
Trying to find one you think I'd like
And it don't come naturally
But you're giving me a reason to try

I'm learning to let go
I'm learning to let go
Despite my disposition, I've made my decision
I'm learning to let go

Something about the way she waxes nostalgic
Makes me think I might-should check her glass
It's a fine line between watered down vodka
And vodka in your water glass
Each time I go back home, the fear takes hold
One day, I too could lose control
It ain't just the drinkin', it's a toxic way of thinkin'
And I'm terrified I'm vulnerable

I'm learning to let go
I'm learning to let go
Despite my disposition, I've made my decision
I'm learning to let go