​​for my friend, or the idea of something more

Do you ever feel like you can’t change?
Like something’s wrong with your brain?
I’ve been feeling that way a lot
I just pray that you’re not

I’m gonna die in this apartment
And nothing you can do will stop it
I fall apart like way too often
I’m gonna die in

Behind me
It’s right where you’re supposed to be
Laying here right next to me
When I wake up it’s

Just a dream, just a dream
Cuz you would never love someone like me
I’m paranoid, and i get jealous easy
And I won’t say I like you cuz I think you hate me

Breathing got so hard
And the autumns come and go
Found mom passed out in the yard
Then I buried her cat out in the snow

Do you ever wanna say goodbye
To everyone you love in this life?
I’ve been feeling that way a lot
I just pray that you’re not

I’m gonna die in this apartment
And nothing you can do will stop it
I fall apart like way too often
I’m gonna die in

Beside me
Its right where I want you to be
I feel for the words I read on the screen
But i don’t think that it means a thing