I want to forget

(Verse)
All the exes and the memories
Stick on me
Growing like a tumor
Reliving in me
Cringing at who I used to be at least
Who the fuck was I when I was released
...
I don't know why the fuck I always feel like...
I have to live inside of my old memories
Knowing that I can't get away
Even if I fucking tried
Why the fuck have I not tried
...
Trap in this hole
I call it writers block
I don't know what these feeling I got
What I did got?
Mental hasn't been good to me
Marking myself almost ever singlе week
Marking the day down on my fucking skin
Fucking oldboy shit
Oldboy shit
... (Yeah)
Been talking to my therapist
Anothеr conversation when a long time (what is this)
Going into another session
Thinking it helps a little bit
When I realize I'm just talking to wall
The grey wall around my mind