Regret making this song later

(Chorus)
Meaning meaningless
Don't get what my purpose is
Secondary character
Died off
I'm fucking meaningless

(Verse 1)
My existence is a cancer
My existence always fails me
Constant downfall by my emotions
I get too close; but not near enough
This knife has been so friendly
These scars are reminders
Carving into new
Paintings struggles of my mental
Fuck all of these people
Too judgmental
Don't know if I'll make it through today
My head has been fill with sorrow
Hoping to bе dead by tomorrow

(Chorus)
Meaning meaninglеss
Don't get what my purpose is
Secondary character
Died off
I'm fucking meaningless
... I'm fucking meaningless
..Fucking meaningless

(Verse 2)
I.. think I read way too much inside the fucking words that you try to say
Knowing I am dyslexic
I might have misread one or two of the words you said
I don't know If I need to go away
Feel like my feelings leave me astray
Straight into the fucking hole I put myself in
Don't know why the fuck I'm always here
Why am I.. this... day to day
I don't know why I even get out of my bed
I don't know if I'm even going to be okay
...
I feel like I get laughing at for my fucking incoherence