Sick of Existence
(Intro)
"I had a plan. I had a plan but now I don’t. And I have no idea what to do. I don’t know what to do and I just, all I know is that I want to stay here. I just want to stay right here with you as long as I possibly can. You’re just all that matters, okay? You’re all that matters to me. And I’m trying to figure out what the right thing is to do and I don’t know what that is. I don’t have any freaking idea how to get there. I just…because I need you to tell me. I need you to… need you to tell me. Okay? Can you just tell me please? Can you just tell me what you want me to do?"
(Verse 1)
I've been
I've been kind of sick
Of doing this
Of getting up in the mornings
Sick of feeling like shit
Sick of feeling
I've been dying for awhile
Teardrops on my phone
Writing lyrics to distract
I am alone
Sitting here I drone
Life spent alone
I don't even know why I am here
...
I read through these words
I know that they're all lies
You say my words mean something
When they don't
(Bridge)
Feeling toxic all the time
I don't know why I am even here
Why am I here?
Why am I here?
Why the fuck am I here?
(Verse 2)
Why am I here (here)
My mind isn't clear (clear)
Here I stay
Hoping to be motivated to end today (to end it)
I don't why I'm here
Should I just end it?
Feeling like I don't have a place here
I should end it
Tell me why the fuck I shouldn't end it?
(Verse 3)
These voices are always chocking me
Knowing I need to stop being so fucking irrational
I've been dying but no one seems to give a fuck
Sitting here singing my lonely songs
Know I'll cry to them later on